I realize my last journal entry hereightve sounded...Emo...so I wanted to post again and assure my few readers that there'snothing to worry about. Mymentalhealth is nomore or less unsable then it has ever been.

I've been feeling really sick lately which has ade me feel really tired. nothing serious, just sinus trouble, ya know? Well, the nly problem is thanks to my damninsomnia, I can't sleep at night, and the people I live with make it impossible to catch any naps during th day. I swear, they find out I'm in bed and make as much noise as they cn until I get up, then they're quiet again. It's annoying.

A friend of mine went to Oni-Con last weekend, and bought a ton of cool stuff. It kinda made me sad though (selfish moment ahead) because she came back with all this cool stuff, and didn't bring me back anything. All the other cons she went to, she brought me back a plushie o something, but not this one. I men, Irealize when you go to a con, you buy things you see that you want, and no one really expects gifts, but she didn't even get me the VA autographs she promised. Ah well, I'll live. ^^

My friend called me from Oni-Con after the concert ( Rentrer en Soi0 and was telling me how wesome it was, so this pt me into a huge J-Rock mood. Unfortunatly, I'm not really in a position to listen to a lot f various J-rock, not to mention the majority of what I like is too "Heavy" to listen to around my family. They already give me strang looks for 'reading books backwards' and liking 'girly men'. Not to mention the one time my brother heard some of my J-rock (If Gackt's Secret Garden really counts) he was like "How can you listen to music you can't understand?" Actually, t's ainly my brother and his wife that give me a hard time. My dad sort of shakes his head and walks off, and my mom, although she doesn't understand my love of Japanese things, does her bet to foster it. In fact, she's going to make me a Kimono and my Mana cosplay outfit for Mecha-Con.

So, sinc I figured I couldn't atisfy this J-rock craving with msic, for the above mentioned reasons, I tried otherthings. First I saved a buchof new gifs and Icons to my J-rock photobucket. When that didn't wrk, I began to sort all my gif and icons by artis.

I'm almost done, but I got bored, so I stopped. Well, now I've been on the hunt for a wallpaper for my laptop (Which I'm conidering Calling Warumono-chan...or Vera-chan..not sure yet.) I know I want something with lots of dark colors because it's asier for me to see light icons/ext on a dark background. I want something with a main image to the right, and a relativly solid background on the lft...a lot of text/other images confuse me when I'm looking for things. I ant a petty picture, hopefully of either Kai(GazettE), Shinya(Dir en Grey), Mana (Malice Mizer days), or Gackt. I had a lovely shirtless Kyo (Di en Grey) but thn I relized the shirtlessness wold be akward when I carry my laptop to school, and the blood in most Kyo pictures would be akward when my mom uses my laptop. I know he type of wllpapers I want exist, because I've had them before..but I can't find any now.

Oh, as hinted at above, my Cosplay lineup has changed again. Im still doing Ken from Weiss Kreuz, but I also want to do Hakkai from Saiyuki and Mana. I orininally wantedto do something Mana-like, with the lovely G-lol clohes and a pretty blue wig, but now I'm thinking I might try to find an actual outfit to do. I liked the outfit he wore i Gardenia, but all-white clothes + me = an accident waiting to happen. Plus I have to keep in mind I've got to buy all the fabri and be sure it's an outfit my mom can recreate, so I'm going to go picture hunting later for a good outfit.

Now I'm listening to the Malie Mizer CD my friend got me last christmas. The music really makes me happy...at leastuntil the music is over.

I gues that's all for now. See you next time!

S: Sorry for all the Typos. My laptop keyboard hates me, and I'm too lazy to fix them. XD